Baby Walk

Wow, that one got posted and I may just be getting the hang of this thing.

Some of you who knows me may be wondering, why did I have 'student' listed under my profile. No, it was never my intent to throw anyone a curve ball. I am a student. I just enrolled at UKM and I will soon be getting my student ID. Thats a mind blower really, me? at this age? a student? Some of my real life friends may even be wondering, why would someone like me (someone who has made a career out of conducting courses and giving seminars and at my age) wants to enrol as a student. Maybe its a statement I am trying to make. A message for all the 'young' people out there, that studying knows NO age limit and that gathering knowledge is a life-long experience.

Recently, we had a meeting of all the students that is being supervised by my Supervisor. I was easily, the most 'matured' in the group. They were very kind though and made comments about learning from me etc. To be totally honest, I was totally lost. I can't even begin to understand the research papers that they are researching. I initially thought that given my experience and knowledge,that doing my PhD would be a breeze. What more with the experiences that I had accummulated in preparing proposals, writing reports and doing presentations, but if this meeting is any indication, doing my PhD will be anything BUT a breeze.

Wow, my first baby walk, as a student. Again! Somehow at this age, going back to school and becoming a student again seems awkward. I keep telling myself, for goodness sake, I had given lectures at UKM before but somehow, this time around, coming in through those gates as a student, I somehow feel different. I feel excited and scared at the same time. Maybe its a feeling of apprehension. Its that unknown frontier, I guess driving in as a speaker or lecturer gives one a different aura, a sense of control. A different feeling altogether as compared to coming in as a student. Somehow, even with the secured knowledge that my PhD thesis is on a subject I am supposed to be an expert in (Entrepreneurship) does not help. I can feel my heart palpitating. It feels like I am going on my very first date and I am planning to touch her hand for the very first time. Is this perspiration on my forehead?

wish me luck guys!